• My Spiritual Journey

    Beyond Imogen

    Martyn took this photo of me the other day and have to admit, I don’t really recognise myself – and this was a bit of a shock at first.
     
    So much has shifted these past years and months that the image that I once had of myself, is no longer there, it no longer fits.
     
    Now I see a lioness, a strength, a power, a vulnerability, and an openness and it’s beautiful to see. I see someone who is sitting in the pocket of who she is, finally comfortable in her own skin. That process has been amazing to watch and certainly very intense to live.
     
    As I write this I get a flash of collective ‘should’ saying “You shouldn’t say things like that out loud, you should be more modest and humble, you’re being egotistical and attention seeking.” But the truth is that to not acknowledge this is to dishonour life and the changes and growth that we all go through. To take a moment to really sink into this acknowledgement, to take stock of the shifts and changes in life is a good thing. It brings with it so much gratitude to life, gratitude to the lessons, the gifts and the humblings that it has shown.
     
    It’s not personal, I’m not saying it with a puffed out chest, I’m not saying it for any gain or need for validation; it’s just an observation of what occurs when life is fully allowed to flow and live into every crack, and every corner of existence. When the shell of conditioning is broken. It happens to all of us if we care to look, if we care to let it in. I’m acknowledging the change in myself with the hope that others might be encouraged to take a look and see it in themselves too.
     
    I’m pointing this out because I always promised myself to use this platform of my blog to be honest, to show all aspects of so called ‘awakening’, to not sugar coat and present only one side of myself, but to bring awareness to all aspects of life on the path of self discovery, as well as bringing the ideas of awakening back down to earth, back down to the lived reality.
     
    In fact I came up with my blog name Beyond Imogen four years ago at the start of this unfoldment and process of what felt like being born again. Now I stand in some ways, completely and totally beyond the Imogen that I once was, almost no remnant is left. But in other ways I am completely and totally Imogen like I never was before. So totally and fully grounded into this experience, living it all without apologies.
     
    To not acknowledge this is a false sense of coy-ness. To not acknowledge the power and presence and rawness that courses in every moment is to deny the beauty and vibrancy of life.
     
    So I look at this photo and I am in awe, Martyn captured something. He captured the dramatic recognition and effect of just how much has changed.
     
    The old Imogen does not exist anymore. This Imogen has a wildness, a strength, and openness, a realness and a vulnerability about her that never was present before. This new Imogen doesn’t care what others think of her, she doesn’t care about self image. She just IS.
     
    And I bowed to that.
     
    [Photo Credit: Martyn Webber]
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  • Quotes

    Make no mistake you will be judged and you will be misunderstood along your path of life.

    The question is will you hold true to the discovery of YOUR truth, no another’s? Will you stand up for your direct experience rather than someone else’s ideals?

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  • Articles

    Own Your Power

    Do not shrink into smallness
    Let yourself roar and feel fully into your inherent power.

    Your power is found in the courage to be you,
    to fully present ALL of you.
    To cease with the judgements and accept all of your wholly divine messy humanness as your own.
    To not second guess and hide yourself for fear of shame and judgement from others.
    To let them see you, really see you in all your glory, in all your power.

    Power is not an ‘evil’ blunt instrument that gets indiscriminately wielded around.

    Power has many faces.
    Power is found in full on vulnerability and openness
    Power is found in the soft tenderness of heart
    Power is found in the depths of sadness and heartbreak
    Power is found in all the bits of yourself you can’t yet met
    Power is found when living on the knife edge of exploration
    Power is found saying no in order that you follow your yeses
    In love and acceptance, there power resides.

    So don’t be afraid to stand in your power.
    Don’t be afraid to turn up to your life in a completely unapologetic way.
    Own your power, don’t shy away from it.

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    Courageous Openness

    When we show ourselves to others, fully open and vulnerable with our hidden tender aspects, without self censoring and hiding, we step into the conversation, into the relationship in a new way. Through this we also invite others to free themselves of their constraints and speak their tender truth too. It’s a true gift, the gift of openness and love.

    Come as you are, no agenda and no expectations, heart open and ready to be met. There are no boundaries between us, no gulf to be filled. Meet me in this moment where you are, without pretence, without posturing or needing to be anything or anyone. Without judgements of good or bad, better or worse, just tender openness.

    If you find yourself being uncomfortable been seen fully without a mask of pretence take a breath, it’s in those moments that it takes great courage to stay open, to stay present, to stay vulnerable and trust.

    There is a great strength in vulnerability and openness, a strength and power that brings with it such freedom and sweetness that all else melts away in that moment.

    This is my invitation to you, to meet your fear of being seen and judged with the fierce love of courageous openness.

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  • Articles

    Looking with Childlike Wonder

    We tend put value judgements on what we want any given moment to look like, and so when the present moment doesn’t look like how we want then we seek to change it; we seek for the ‘good’ to stay and the ‘bad’ to go. This futile seeking to change the here and now causes immense suffering because life can look like anything.

    And yet in reality good or bad it doesn’t matter, it all comes, it all goes, nothing stays around for very long. NOTHING. If we can sink into the reality of that for a moment we can see the futility of trying to hold on to anything; then the peace and sense of freedom that opens up in its wake is quite glorious. The physical feeling of tension and heaviness is lifted, the space of being right here right now is felt. Nothing to change, nothing to do, nothing to be.

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  • Poetry

    Embracing Life

    Look at the world as if you know nothing,
    don’t draw any conclusions
    about what you experience,
    or who you are.
     
    Innocently move through life
    experiencing what is
    without the burdens of ideas,
    judgements and conclusions.
     
    Take each moment a fresh,
    knowing that this moment will never be again.
     
    Lovingly embrace each experience of life,
    how lucky we are to have the play of life
    grace us with its beauty and light.
     
    Embrace all, reject nothing –
    see that you are the master of none but the father/mother of all.

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  • Articles,  Featured

    The Humanness of Existence

    The utter humanness of existence cradles in it every possible emotion, sensation, feeling & thought. We can’t run from that, we can’t hide from that, we can’t avoid or resist that, and nor should we want to.

    It’s our human experiencing that reveals the ever-changing world of perception that we live in – our ‘world’ is constantly being born and reborn in every moment. Embrace this change, embrace it as the play and display of awareness-consciousness (you). This play is set on the stage of pure open, unconditioned and ineffable awareness-consciousness.

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  • Articles

    The Big ‘Enlightenment’ Ruse

    After so many years of the word Enlightenment being banded around by spiritual gurus, new age folk and self-help aficionados, I find myself feeling that the word is just seen as another concept that’s predicated on a ton of other concepts about life. It’s an idea that keeps hold of the mind’s interest in working towards the idea of a state of happiness, bliss, no suffering and the ‘perfect life’. On this level it feels like one big ruse, a massive cosmic joke that everyone is aiming towards, but there’s nothing when you get there; in fact there’s no thing and no there to ‘get’!!

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    Words That Don’t Stick

    My relationship to speech and words has completely changed. I used to believe that what I said was the end result of something rolling around in my head, carefully considered and judge and then spat out into the world. There was a feeling that words were informed my memories and impressions, that there was history and knowledge in the words too.

    Now when I speak and I have no idea where it comes from. I have no opinions that I’ve formed that come out in response to someone speaking. I actually listen when someone’s speaking, with open heart and mind, it’s not just an opportunity to figure out what to say next!

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    The Avoidance of What IS

    I had a recent conversation that brought into focus how important it is for someone who overthinks to get out of their head, and allow whatever feeling or sensation that occurs to arise and to just feel it. Don’t analyse it, don’t name it, don’t judge it – just feel it.

    The very act of focusing in on the thought to try and ‘figure it out’ tends to perpetuate the suffering that’s being felt. What is being ‘felt’ is literally a feeling or energetic sensation arising within you that is being interpreted by the mind.

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