• Quotes

    Make no mistake you will be judged and you will be misunderstood along your path of life.

    The question is will you hold true to the discovery of YOUR truth, no another’s? Will you stand up for your direct experience rather than someone else’s ideals?

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  • Articles

    The Difficulty of Pretending with Others

    I was asked the other day how I deal with being around others, particularly when there’s a level of pretending or not speaking your truth that seems to be required of you.

    I too know all too well this feeling of suffocation in the company of others. The subtle unsaid permissions of what you can say, which topics you can touch on and how deep that can go. The unsaid permissions that someone can’t give for fear of threatening their own sense of Self, views and place in the world that they hold so tightly so as to keep the facade of security and knowingness intact.

    I think this is why the idea of Sanghas can be so enticing, a place to commune with others who were of like mind and place in their journey of unfoldment, of seeing. A place when you can find common ground and openness, common experience and views. Alas it’s not as easy as it sounds to find the ‘right’ sangha!

    You are lucky if you can find this in a partner or in a close friend or two – this is what I have with Martyn and this is what I am eternally grateful for. Alone together and full permission and delight of me to be me and him to be him. The freedom to be as we are, the freedom to plumb the depths and go anywhere – no ‘sacred cows’ that are off-limits.

    You asked how I deal with the difficulty of pretending with others. Firstly I take plenty of time to go into my aloneness, isolation and unknowingness and revel in the freedom to be. This place of ‘only don’t know’ is such a beautiful place to be. Beautiful and vulnerable. Delicate, embracing and loving but powerful and full of strength. It’s in this space that we can truly see ourselves and breath in the fullness of existence. Taking this time of solitude is incredibly important, especially for me being the hermit and introvert that I am.

    But these days when I am with others I find myself laying it all out to bare, trusting in this process and letting the chips fall where they may. Standing in my truth, being open and honest and trusting. Trusting that even if I get push-back or hurt that I can handle it, that they can handle it too and the freedom to be me, the freedom for them to be them is much more important than any particular outcomes. It has meant the loosing and changing of many relationships, but it has also meant the discovery of those relationships that can withstand this vulnerable nakedness of openness and truth that I find myself standing in.

    Then of course there are those relationships where masking and pretending is absolutely necessary. Practically speaking I try to minimise the amount of time spent in these types of interactions, that certainly helps. Making sure that I do have plenty of alone time and nourishing relationships where masking and pretending isn’t needed so that there is capacity for those relationships where it’s not possible. Also in those interactions to find as much openness and compassion as is available in any given moment. To not shame or blame the need to protect, defend or set unsaid boundaries, but honoring and accepting those boundaries where we find them. Understand that they are often there for a reason, even if it’s a reason I (or they) can’t see or understand.

    Letting Go

    From a broader view of this topic generally for me it was the attachments to outcomes and desires in terms of interactions and relationships that had to go. The attachment to the desire of people liking me, people seeing me, the desire to looking a certain way, to be loved or even liked. Even the attachment to the desire to connect deeply or in a certain way, to be understood and acknowledged.

    The power in the lack of attachment has been enormous for me, scary but completely freeing. I have nothing to lose, I have no rights to certain outcomes of how I think things should go. I just am who I am in any moment, it’s raw and risky feeling but it’s real and honest. And so in this I’m eternally grateful for what I do have, for all that comes across my path, forget about ‘good’ and ‘bad’.

    There is only so much that one can repress and suffocate themselves, the cracks begin to show. The holes start forming and things start to escape in more violent and unpredictable ways.

    I encourage you to breath into the fullness of your experience, let the chips fall where they may and find those moments, those people, those spaces, those pages even, where you can freely be YOU.

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  • Quotes

    The truth can not be broken so don’t be afraid.
    Trust that life will take care of life.
    Hold on to that even in the depths of fear.
    What you are can never be lost.
    The truth will win out.

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  • Articles,  My Spiritual Journey

    The Lion Roars

    Wow I feel like a lion has been unleashed. This brutal honesty in service of truth that cuts with the precision of a well known blade is quite a surprise to me. This sharp intellect that can spar and duel with words unknown to me, spilling out like nobodies business.

    There’s still a tendency that’s been around all my life – that when confronted with an assertion by someone, to shy away, to back down without even looking, to assume that they must be right… “who am I after all? I know nothing.”

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  • Poetry

    Stand in Truth

    I stand in truth.

    Can I accept that I may be judged,
    I may be questioned,
    I may be ridiculed?

    Can I accept that,
    can I be brave?

    Can I stand in my own truth,
    without qualification and explanation?

    Can I stand sure,
    knowing that it’s the right thing,
    it’s the only thing?

    Can I stand in truth,
    unashamedly without reason,
    and with no excuse?

    Can I stand up for mySelf,
    stand tall for the realisation of my very being?

    Can I stand up for the truth of my own reality
    that I know so well,
    so intimately?

    Can I live my life without the influence of shoulds and should nots?

    Can I say to hell with it all and be as I am?

    Can I stand in all my glory,
    warts and all,
    honest and vulnerable?

    Can I accept all of it,
    every aspect of me,
    every aspect of life,
    can I embrace it into my heart without exception?

    So I stand in my truth
    and in turn encourage others to stand in theirs.

    For it’s the most loving thing I can do for myself and others.

    Drop all the games,
    all the masks,
    all the pretences,
    all the false concepts and notions,
    drop it all.

    Stand naked and open,
    don’t hide your light.

    Let reality, truth and honesty be the guiding movement of life.

    Let the truth of your being shine through.

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  • Quotes

    Once the crack in life begin to show the truth of reality can shine through.“Once the cracks in life begin to show the truth of reality can shine through.” – Imogen

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