The Illusion of Free Will

The illusion of free will is just that - an illusion. While it may be a short term comfort, the sense of control, of the person from the person, again and again we will meet the cracks that reveal the truth of it - it is just that... an illusion, a dance, a play, All. Of. It. But when holding onto this appearing seeming comfort, we can be overcome with the deeply somatic and existential fear that contradicts and points out our dearly held false belief. And in doing so, naturally the crumbling of that is a painful one to be sure. It is not the lack of control that is painful, but the holding on to falsities. We are emptiness dancing. No thinker, yet thinking happens. No doer, yet doing happens. When a letting go and surrendering of these false notions occurs it will be revealed, that "all shall be well, all shall be well, and all manor of thing shall be well." ~ Julian of Norwich All is playing out as it always did, just with the lack of overlayed commentary that talks of the failure or success of that which the "I" seemingly controlled. It is our…

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Stuckness

There is no "stuckness" per se, just our idea of where we need to go and how fast we need to get there in comparison to where we are right now. That whatever is here, whatever appears to be "stuck" here, shouldn't be here at all. That we "should" have passed through this by now. For over a month now I've been waiting for a cutting of our beautiful angel wing begonia to spring roots in water. Each day I'd check in with it... nothing. After several weeks I assumed that nothing was going to happen, it wasn't going to work. Maybe at that point I could have given up on it, assumed it was done for, it wasn't going to grow. But low and behold a week later... some tiny little roots appeared overnight. A few days later and I'm astonished how quickly this little cutting has sprung into life. My point here is... we can't be the judge of progress. We can't assume we're stuck just because on the surface level things aren't going the way we thought they should or planned for them to go. The rhythms and moments of life can often appear confounding and mysterious…

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The Vast Patience of the Heart

Patience is not just a practice to be kept. Patience is not just an effort to be continuously made. True patience comes naturally and spontaneously when you are impregnated fully with love. That love which fills every corner of your heart. That love that knows no bounds, no time limits, no conditions, no end. That love is where the vast and infinite patience for it all is found. Patience for the journey as it slowly walks its path. Patience for the moment it takes to find those right words. Patience for the emotion that takes its time to pass. Patience for the highs and lows of life to cycle through at their own pace. Patience for the stories and dramas that get played out again and again. Patience for the body as it takes its needed rest, its needed pause. Patience for the constant learning and the seeming wrong turns. Patience for the endless opening and heartbreak that life inevitably brings. Patience for the childlike discovery and excitement of every new moment. Patience for the depth of human messiness that is yet to unfold. Patience for even the impatient need to move onto the next and the next. Patience isn't…

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