The illusion of free will is just that – an illusion.
While it may be a short term comfort, the sense of control, of the person from the person, again and again we will meet the cracks that reveal the truth of it – it is just that… an illusion, a dance, a play, All. Of. It.
But when holding onto this appearing seeming comfort, we can be overcome with the deeply somatic and existential fear that contradicts and points out our dearly held false belief. And in doing so, naturally the crumbling of that is a painful one to be sure.
It is not the lack of control that is painful, but the holding on to falsities.
We are emptiness dancing.
No thinker, yet thinking happens. No doer, yet doing happens.
When a letting go and surrendering of these false notions occurs it will be revealed, that “all shall be well, all shall be well, and all manor of thing shall be well.” ~ Julian of Norwich
All is playing out as it always did, just with the lack of overlayed commentary that talks of the failure or success of that which the “I” seemingly controlled.
It is our judgements and impatience that reveal where we are yet to clearly see, our true nature that shines through.
It is all a happening of life.